this is my life

and now im crying again
crying so hard :'(
why would all of this happen to me??
why did my life so pathetic??
why must i think about this useless thing???
to be honest, i do always think about love
when would i be happy as my friends, as the other people out there
having someone that took care of you
someone that will always be there for you
i used to have one, and do really love him
but, my parent didn't allow us to be together
YA ALLAH, i really love him :'(
everything was perfect expect that i can't disobey my parent
now, all that i can do is praying for the best for us
i do try to be with other one
but seems like they are not the right one
they?? ya, not just one that say they would do anything for me but it was just a lie
but then when i found a good person for me, he just can't be mine
he would never be mine
because he belongs to other girl
and i do cried for him
cried thinking of me
do i really deserve to be loved??
or it will always be like this??
now, i give up on him
all that i can do is cry n pray that all of this would end soon