I missed myself

Pernah suatu masa dulu, aku berdoa agar Allah tarik rasa SAYANG aku, rasa KASIH dan BELAS aku supaya aku tak mudah sayang seseorang. sebab org yg aku sayang belum tentu akan sayang aku sedangkan aku akan semakin sayang pada org yg aku sayang. Pengalaman mengajar tentang diri aku tp aku masih tak dapat nak atasi diri aku sendiri. How i wish i could be like the one i used to be long time ago
Aku pernah jadi antilelaki, benci lelaki. Sebab lelaki yg aku kenal, yg aku nampak mementingkan rupa. Suke main2.
Aku nak camtu lg, aku nak hati aku keras lg. Aku ta na cepat lembut hati, aku ta na mudah sgt percaya kan org. Aku rindu aku yg dulu.

a life i never asks it to be
a life i never wanted it to be
or even having a slight think in my mind to be such way
but, its a life, its a reallity, its happening, its cannot be undone
no matter how much i wanted it to rewind, no matter how regret i am
that one mistake change my life, and slowly change my self
however, this life given by Him, He knows the best for me, and i wish everything gonna be fine