aku menangis lagi

aku bru search at google tadi

then aku bace

aku nangis

baru la aku tau betape teroknye keadaan aku sebenanye

aku takot

onestly!

YA ALLAH!

besarnye dugaan Kau berikan kepadaku

semue simptom tu aku rase mcm aku ade semue tu

aku takot ya Allah

jangan la sampai keadaanku jadi lebih parah

cukop la selama ni aku isaukan mak ayah aku

aku ta na bebankan dorang lagi ngan masalah aku pulak

KAU MAHA MENGERTI HAMBAMU INI YA ALLAH

makbulkanlah doaku ini

bia aku tanggung sakit ni sendiri

jangan bebankan mereka lagi

life must go on

sad...

thats what i feel

but love doesn't means we'll be together

its what people always said

because He has someone special for us

fated to be with us

 no matter what

we will be together

its only the time decide it

whether it fast or not

i pray all the time

hoping the suffer will end soon

waiting somebody that can be with me

and accept me the way i am

it is better to be alone then doing the wrong things right? 

hope everythings is fine

please stop soon

its hurt watching others happier than we are!

life must go on nisa! 

its not for u yet!

right here, right now...MRS

right here, right now...

i lose the person i love

but its for good

and i hope so

sure i'm gonna miss him

but, this relationship will be unfair if its continue

i really dont wanna lose u

u always there when i need

i hope that i will remain like that, can u??

i have loved u way to much that it hard for me to say goodbye

thanks a lot for loving me such a long time

thanks for being the one that care for me

i wish, its the best decision for us

aminn~

cukop la dengan sgale bende remah yg aku pikir selame ni

aku harap sem baru ni akan jdi lbeh baik

please dont think about love lagi nisa!!!

its useless!

they are all the same!!!

u know why nisa!

enough with what u have been through

asek tido je!

onestly,

memang aku akan tido sampai pagi

sebab?

badan ta sehat lahhh

ase penat je

mcm makin terok je

da lame ta g berubat pon

huhu

bile la na oke ni.............

now, when i'm alone

now, when i'm alone..

sedih datang...

haha

ni la sebab aku ta suke dok sorang2

sebab aku takot aku pikir sume masalah aku

aku ta na pikir sume tu

sebab aku kompem aku nangis

betape untongnye idop korang drpd aku

tpi aku selalu doa

agar ALLAH berikan sesuatu yg baik gak untuk aku d akhir nanti

aku kne saba gak

aku kne terime sume ni

sebab aku da janji mse dalam rahim mak

sume orng camtu kan??

kite da janji kite akn terime pe pon yg d takdirkan tok kite

so, ni la takdir aku

my happy life change at 14, haha

funny je bunyik die

but sume masalah ni buat pemikiran aku lebih matang

aku kne pikir panjang sebelum buat pape.

pikir baik burok pade aku n family aku

so, pe yg aku buat family aku akan tau.

sebab i live for them

n aku pena janji pd diri aku, ALLAH jdi saksi

andai satu hari nanti family aku terutamanye parent aku terbeban ngan aku

aku rela Dia mengambil nyawe aku

sebab aku idop untuk bahagiakan dorang bukan susakan dorang

now, i'm struggling for my life

to be as healthy as i can

as strong as i can

as happy as i can

to be success

hope i can!!!! 

smilee!!!

aku mmg suke pk bende remeh ni kan??

mcm da ta de bende lain je na pk

huhu~

lau da pk tu kompem la nangis

sampaikan de org pesan 'jangan nangis2 lagi ea?'

ta ke clear sangat aku ni sedih

tpi de die tau??

TAK!

sia2 je air mate aku ni

nape la aku bodo sayangkan die sangat

sedangkan die ta pena na caye

ta pena pk aku

ta kesa pon pasal aku

bile la aku bole lupekan die ea

ngat na dri ganti so bole lupekan die

tpi

ta sape na, huhu~

n aku ta na kecewa lagi

ckop la da bnyak kali aku kne

just have to SMILE! ^^

n let everyone know that i'm okey!

aku masih ingatkan die!

tolong la YA ALLAH!

hilangkan die dari ingatan aku,

aku ta sanggop camni

kenape aku bodo sayangkan die sangat???

sedangkan die ta pena pikir pasal aku

ta amek kesa pasal aku pon

tpi aku tetap sayang die even aku da tau die buat aku camtu

cukop la aku buang mase selame ni

aku na jadi matang!

aku na berjaye

aku na banggekan mak ayah

aku ta na pikir sume bende remeh ni

aku da ta na nangis

 

studying again

after sleeping for only almost 4 hours

aku sambong study balek

one n only reason,

sebab aku na lupekan masalah aku

pe lagi bole buat

na tido pon da ta bole

study je la

huhu

but, i have been thinking a lot

i might gonna wait for him

but before that

i'm gonna ask my friends

whether i should or shouldn't do that

i don't know why

but i have been thinking about him lately

i'm worried about him

would he think the same

honestly, i wish he does

part of him that i used to know, will feel the same

i don't ever know if he ever read my blog

hope he understand

what we have been through is not a small things

we have been through a lot for quiet a long timethis shouldn't be happen

my bad

oke, aku rindu die

why??

aku pon ta tau

but what i know, I SHOULD NOT MISS HIM

 because i am really sure die ta rindu aku

da kenal sgt ngan die

prove??

die da ta pena contact aku

benci giler kan kat aku??

sia2 mase aku slame ni syg kat kau sedangkan kau senang2 lupekan aku 

or sebab kau memang ta de perasaan at aku??

jauh dalam ati aku, memang kadang2 aku harap kau ingat aku lagi 

coz kau ckp kau syg giler kat aku

syg sgt ngan relationship kite

but now

semua kate2 kau tinggal kenangan

aku langsung da ta tau pape pasal kau

aku risau sebenanye

sgt risau!

hanye ALLAH yang tau pe dalam ati aku

n aku berharap DIA ada yang terbaik tok aku dan kau jugak II

amiin~~~

be strong!

da tinggal bape ari je at sini.

sangat ta saba na balik!

penat la asek na nangis je

now, i have my own list on my desktop

list of untrustable one!

haha!

and unbelieveable

sangat ramai upenye!!

and sangat bnyak kali la aku kne tipu kann?

pas ni ase na tuka title blog je

MY PATHETIC LIFE!!!

thanks for everythings...

betol cakap orang,

PENGALAMAN TU PENTING.

and now,

pengalaman mengajar aku untuk menjadi lebih tabah,

hope so!

my heart is hurt!

thats the truth,

ya! u see i'm smiling coz thats the best cure.

aku SANGAT2 give up dengan love.

whats enough is enough.

done with all those hurting the heart of mine session!

hope aku tak kne lagi.

aku memang senang na percayekan orang!

and this what i get!

i'm asking others favour,

PLEASE DONT LIE TO ME, OKEY???

coz i afraid that i might believe those lies!

pe muke aku ni muke mintak kne tipu ke??

huhu~~

my life is so pathetic, isn't it?

ya, i know that

and now,

ta saba sgt2 na balik uma,

na jumpe family

and my mom!

to tell her everythings that happen to me here.

until now, i couldn't find someone suit as her wish.

ade pon, i dont know la.

huhu~~

mak je la carikkan tok nisa ea???

p/s:: kadang2 jealous gak tengok orang couple BUT its enough for me!

............

seriously,

aku ta de aty na dok at sni.

apsal sume orang na bagy aku masalah je??

de je na buat aku sakit aty laa

mood sgt2 spoil ari ni

da ta bole na senyum

sorry to say

aku manusia biase, ade had kesabaran gak

but for now

aku ta la sampai na shout bende tu

sbab mmg aku ta reti na cite masalah aku at orng lain

hyyep! huhu

da lame kan nisa ta update?? 

haha

nisa ase last year kann??

hehe mcm da lame sgt je last year tu

padahal baru SEMALAM!

anyway,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

HOPE EVERYTHING GONNA BE BETTER! <3~

tapi mmg lame pon nisa ta update blog ni

huhu~

tibe2 ase mlas je na update

n, arini ase ajin pulak na update

but pas ni i'm gonna stop again for awhile

coz, I'VE FINAL TEST TOMORROW!!

huhu~ cuak gak la kan

study ta abes ag ni

YA ALLAH!

TOLONG LA HAMBAMU INI~

hope sgt bole buat

nisa ni pulak da mmg GABRA je kejenye

however! i'll try my best of course

then, NAK BALIK UMA!

miss my sweet little home!

n NA LUPEKAN SEGALE MASALAH AT SINI!!!!!!!

oke la,

na g sambung study!

papai~

thanks sudi bace(if ade la kan, hoho =_=! )

n also

THANKS FOR THOSE YG SLALU ADE TOK DENGA MASALAH SAYE!

LOVE U!

ONESTLY!

GLAD TO HAVE U WITH ME! <3 <3 <3

hee~~

kbyee~~~